Elastic Time

Evening Bloggers,

A minor miracle of unpredicted keyboard dexterity not warranted at all this evening (for various reasons). Today is a day of elastic time where everything is defined and colours are vivid and time stretches.......mental photographic moments.

Awaiting results...

Have had good time out recently! Highlight the golden wedding celebs at the weekend at the cottage. S and G Khan 50 years married! Dad had brought out photos of the wedding which the children really enjoyed...cousin/neice Frankie quote " Grandma was really HOT!"

You cannot have too much champagne or too much space. I love space and always wanted to be an astronaut but was worried about travel sickness and the confinements of that space helmet.

Loved camping at the cottage, loved the sound of the rain on the tent and the sunlight in the morning and the sounds of the wood.

I'm off to the roof now to enjoy the full moon over Capomaestro towers! Tim by the way I think the 3 peaks should be the next challenge!
L


Lee and I have been out tonight for dinner, and too many drinks, and are listening to Motzart with the windows on the roof fully open and the moon shining down on us as the beautiful music fills the air. Sarah and Jim have the kids for the evening and we are in limbo waiting on the annoucnement from the medics tomorrow, my friend Neville introduced me to Requiem and to this day I feel it is the most complete musical composition I have ever heard. One time there was a Typhoon in Japan, where I was working, and this was on the car stereo when I stopped and watched the lighting crash into the paddy fields as I could not drive in the downpour. These are moments that define, one way or another, our life.

In the last months I have become reluctant to post much on the blog, as it seems that things will probably be OK, whatever that means, but for sure it is different from short term death, which was the alternative.

This evening, in the spirit of the blog which was to be honest and create a record of my feelings about the situation, I am scared and apprehensive about tomorrow, I hope that Dr Scott will confirm the expected result of an all clear scan, but I am scared about my own strength if that is not the case, which is just as likley as the last time I more confidently and arrogantly faced this situation. Humility is a lesson learned in the fire of reality and I have learnt this lesson.

I hope and feel things will be OK tomorrow, I wish for it to be true or confirmed, but in reality this last year has taught me that the beauty of Motzart is still beautiful, camping in Logie Coldstone where Hollly and Poppy rescued the camp fire from embers can never be bought or sold, every day that we live, and all the people we touch and warm are privilages to be treasured and held close.

Lee has decided that she wants to go to the moon before she dies, and has instructed me to say so in the blog - I think I should pay less attention to the computer and more to her....

Anyway hopefully I will post tomorrow on the result, which the medics are confident about, and then normal life can take over from blogworld, chemo, IV plumbing, hospitals and big scanners, for how long no one knows, but every day of it will be precious, of that you can be sure.

Hence time to stop typing and live

Cheers

Gerry